[Esc] reality

my life sucks lately

I'm posting this so others will have seen and responded and I'm less likely to suppress and forget it. 

I've gotten to the point where I have a pretty good idea what I need yet not the faintest clue how to go about it. The way my life is set up right now is just not a healthy environment. I feel isolated and cut of...

🐱 Good Kitty Pampering - At Home Spa Facial 🐱

Get the Jack package in this loving, pampering video! I never make girlfriend videos anymore because people's demands make me feel like I'm only wanted when I pretend to be in love with someone. This video was actually made for someone I'm in love with so you get to experience being Jack and really being loved by me. While getti...

life and flea markets

Must... refrain... from... editing all my photos Type O Negative style... 

Right now I'm having my morning coffee with milk and honey because it's been suddenly freezing cold. I woke up with a sore throat. I swear, summers here are like 2018-06-15 20:11:33 +0000 UTC View Post

⛥June Download⛥

Good time to be a patron! Lol. You couldn't decide whether you wanted the Aromatherapy Massage or Energy Healing so have both plus a bonus download. 

The download isn't a huge project I have to prepare and film and put work in so I didn't see a point in making you pick again. Each came in at 11 votes so were by far the mo...

Would You Rather - Story Time

Thank you everyone for joining my stream! I had a lot of fun talking to you all and telling stories lol. Enjoy the recording and I hope you can make it to the next one!

Outtakes/Rambles - Anxiety Healing w/ Black Tourmaline

"Tell your patrons what you're working on" Idk I'm really down. But I made something to make you laugh and hopefully entertain you. I talk a lot. This is what happens to a person who lacks human contact. Cheers

//Ally

Anxiety Healing w/ Black Tourmaline

"Honestly, write anything -- your patrons will love it." Anything. 

Your patience has paid off and I finally managed to make another crystal healing video. I hope this meets your expectations if not exceeds them, for the raging winner in the last trigger poll. Sorry it took so long. I haven't had the motivation to clean a...

Summer Goth Chillin'

 Su-su-summer goth, summer goth chillin' - it's just a summer goth, summer goth chillin' ... I got my mesh top on tonight, I don't dance but I got sparklers to light. Hair as straight as my bitchy Virgo mom, my boots off - I regret that one...  

You'll see why at the end. If you can stay awake that long. If you liked...

🍃 Summer Storm 🍃

Edit: I forgot to set early access to this and then forgot to publish it.

I captured this beautiful storm last week because I'm all about storms and randomly hitting record when it rains just in case. Storms are my favorite part of summer. Finally, a much needed relief from the suffocating heat. Listen to the gentle...

work and calmness

It's a rainy night. Calm and tranquil. This other world I described in my video titled Sounds of the Night is sucking me in. It makes my heart long for permanence and I wish it could always be this peaceful - I... could always be this peaceful. But the day is harsh and people unforgiving. If only the night could last forever...<...

⛥May Extras⛥ // Deep Fried Burgers

Thank you for picking Damn Good Food for your May bonus video! I hope you enjoy the recipe aswell as the humor. So happy to be caught up with my video responsibilities! Stay tuned for the June poll.

 ⛥ Shopping list for this recipe: 

10.5 oz ground beed + pork
1 small onion
1 medium egg
1/...

🌸 Dream Garden Spa 🌸

"Now this is a story all about how..." Edit: Now fixed. Let me know if it's good now or if I need to make more changes. I'll keep the project files for a couple days at least. Enjoy!

Welcome to the Dream Garden Spa! Tonight you get to enjoy an evening of relaxation in a warm bath with a delicious fr...

Energy Healing // Powerful Stress Relief

"What're you thinking about?" How much pain I'm in, thanks for asking, Patreon. 

This video is calm comfort. Between the music, firm but gentle voice, flowing movements and personal attention - it's a truly soothing experience, and that's not even counting the energy healing aspect of it. I tried to continually talk throu...

🐱 Stress Less Coloring Cats 🐱

Worn out from a hectic week? Let's stay home, have a drink, lounge on the bed and color in some kitties! 

Obviously I'm back in my comfort zone with the makeup. Though I've clearly overloaded Jack with videos - I guess 4 in one week are a lot. It was a lot of work time, too, but I just really wanted to make another video ...

Patron Live Chat

thank you for joining my very first livestream :)

A Basic ★Party For Two★ #9

This gives me an idea for a bonus video for next month. 

Anyway, after a long, hard battle between Libra, Gemini and even Cancer - finally, here is the Gemini reading you all were so excited for. Feat. the basic bitch makeup sponsored by viewers who enjoy seeing me suffer. This was very uncomfortable but I'll take just ab...

⛥May Download⛥

I'm glad you liked The Gentlest Spa Massage video so much! Enjoy the mp3 download :)

I'll do my best to make as many videos as possible before the month is over to give you some good selections next month! 

Aromatherapy Massage

This was meant to be a short video, believe it or not. It seems to always take me a lot longer to do things than estimated - I'm sorry about that, unless you're already used to it, in which case thank you for putting up with my late delivery of promised things. I'm just so relieved I was finally able to execute a video, and a re...

⛥May Q&A⛥

Where in the US are you moving?

Missouri. We like trees.

How's life?

An exhausting, moody mess. Thank the coffee farmers for keeping me alive lately.

What are your hopes and dreams?

Ok, this is going to be very, very basic. I feel like everytime you hea...

longest, hardest week ever

This week (and the week before) I had all the appointments (not nearly done) and you know how that always fucks with my sleep schedule so I'm still recovering from the overwhelming stress, fatigue, sleep deprivation, emotional rollercoaster and ugh the yucky medical stuff. I've been unsuccessfully trying to work an...

terrible start to the day

I have an appointment at 4:15 today so I set an alarm for 1:30, giving myself time to snooze, get ready and get there in time. Turns out I didn't even need the alarm cutting right into my sleep time because my neighbors thought it was perfectly acceptable to slam their front door so hard it could break, repeatedly,...

failed attempts

The past days I've recorded two videos and I hate both of them. For the mystery video I was not pleased with how incoherent it turned out and how short it was so I spontaneously decided it needs a map. I don't own a map and neither does anyone I know so I went and bought a map. I was gonna try again tonight but sin...

Traffic Noise #1

"Why do you create?" That question always catches me off guard. It's one of the default samples at the beginning of any patreon post. I don't really know, I started out just looking for something to do with my time and boom there was a demand and now I'm trying to contribute to my family. We have a cat who is a very picky eater ...

Thank you so much!

This month marks the first time I've been over my $666 goal. You may or may not have seen on my page that I already pledged to three wonderful individuals and I want to take my time to find three more. I wasn't able to find City of Dawn on patreon but maybe I can convince Damien to make a patreon so I can support him. It can be ...

Astral Woods

Edit: Now fixed. Enjoy!

No ambience if you really only want half the experience.  

I asked Jack to give me an hour to post this and cook dinner so good luck to me cause I have a lot to say. 

I haven't move...

i can't go back to being a shell of myself i'm sorry

I tried.

Sorry, once again I'm not gonna make my arbitrary deadline. I really wanted to publish another video before the end of the month so I tried. Last night I was way too out of it. Tonight I filmed one and as per usual, I hate everything about it. You know I like my videos to be just right and this one was just all kinds ...

The Gentlest Spa Massage

People have asked me forever and ever to talk softer. For some videos like bar roleplays it just doesn't make sense, cause what bartender in a busy club whispers in your ear? Lol. In this soft, gentle, soothing massage - it works. I wanted to focus on making the experience as gentle as possible for you. And I must say, the oily ...

★Party For Two★ #8

This was such a close tie. In the end, Scorpio won the match by just one vote and here's an 80 minute video dedicated just to Scorpios. Laced with various ASMR sounds and the ambient background of the highway at night, we can have a fun time hanging out and talking about astrology and random things. There will be another poll so...