My style has Japanese influences, but is also so basic and lacking in refinement that people don't always pick up on it. It doesn't fit anywhere nicely, a theme for me throughout my life... It all starts to fall apart when the characters face any direction that isn't 3/4 from one side. I never focused on drawing because I wasn't never very good at it. I couldn't keep up with other students so I gravitated to sculpting where I could hold my own a little better. As my life fell apart in my 20s I basically gave up on art, having dedicated a lot of my time before that to it. I spent about a decade not learning. I just kept doing stuff because no one would let me kill myself. So now I'm kind of in this weird limbo of being just good enough to scrape by. I've got a weird skillset now. It's kind of like when you play an RPG, but you don't really understand the leveling system. So about halfway through you realize that you've spent all your skill points in a scattershot way. I actually play a few hours of most RPGs with the specific intent to learn the leveling system intuitively so I can restart & do it right. That's kind of where I feel like I am in life a lot of the time. I really want to reset.
Of course that wouldn't really work because the specific set of events that got me here depend on the mistakes I made the first time. If I started with a clear goal I'd be some other person completely. I mean there's no point in complaining about it now. I have to work within the parameters of my reality. Still, it does annoy me at 3 AM when I'm posting sketches to my patreon, wishing I had something better to offer than my scratchings & a rambling ejaculation of words...
Perfesser Bear
2020-09-28 23:37:07 +0000 UTCKaijuWhite
2020-09-28 13:19:52 +0000 UTCSen Trillion
2020-09-28 10:59:48 +0000 UTCChristopher Winesett
2020-09-28 10:38:15 +0000 UTCJackie Wohlenhaus
2020-09-28 09:23:18 +0000 UTCArmin von Werner
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