ellakociuba

just so natural

being nude is natural and taboo at the same time

i don’t have a perfect body

but i have me and i love it

so i present it confidently and give that energy to others

because i know what it’s like to struggle with your body, mind, and spirit

i get you.

Feb Sketch 2

No idea what i created, honestly tried to do this sketch in less than 15min.

making characters up

sunshine is fine

being outside is necessary for me to decompress.

be in tune with nature

the one thing that made us excel also made us weak

we stopped living in nature

so we disconnected

with how to survive as a being

so just remember that

go outside

conne...

February Workouts 5-7

Workout 5:

12 minute warm up jog/run

(1:40 easy jog pace, 20 second work pace)

5x:

20 calorie bike (assault bike or air bike)

10/10 single leg kettlebell step ups on 24"

10 medicine ball roll ups 

20 QUALITY ball slams - really use all of your body and be elaborate on the motio...

Listen to the silence

There is so much to be heard here.

Prepared

There cannot be life without stress but there can be a choice on what we take from it.

I’ve had numerous amount of negatives become positive.

Be better

Shots from my Spartan set will be up soon. 💜

Happy Love Day

Give love to others today.

Yes even to strangers.

Smile at them, tell them something genuine and nice.

Go buy flowers for your crush or for your homie.

Take your mom out to dinner.

Stop by a mom and dad shop and give good conversations.

Be kind. Be mindful. Give love.

And not j...

February Workouts 1-4:

10 minute incline warm up or just do this on a field you know

3 minutes walking at 15min below pace, 3 minutes jogging, 2 minute increase speed every 15 seconds, 1 minute easy jog, 1 minute walk easy. 

A lot of my core is sometimes the same so I don't always jot it down. 

I also do a lot...

i like to hold your burdens

i have this thing about me you see.

i love to nurture. to make someone feel like the world.

here’s the thing too, i don’t give expecting my love back.

i’m rare.

i’m willing and i understand this.

here is a piece of advice:

don’t hurt women like me, we don’t stop evolving. ...

I’m in my head

I never know what I’m creating sometimes until it just appears on paper.

moment of surrender

i remember realizing i gave love to the wrong one for too long.

that i was brainwashed

abused and neglected

because of their need for power

be so weary my fellow givers. just because they hang the moon once for you doesn’t mean they can keep it there. <...

I ain’t no snack

Here to feed colonies.

Stallion.

What do you think i mean when i refer to myself as a stallion?

For my next shoot...

Between these three options, which shall it be?

the only light

the grass is always green when the grass is green

don’t be fooled

Head Vomit- January

Attention is our biggest motivator. 

Attention is our biggest distraction. 

Attention is our biggest stress. 

And our attention is our perception. 

the mind wanders 50% of the time. does it wander well?

*questions to ask yourself 2019-01-28 16:10:48 +0000 UTC View Post

Dreams

I dreamt of being great so much that when the time came to execute it all I had to do was close my eyes and watch myself win it for the thousandth time.

i subconsciously road-mapped my way to greatness.

ENVISION

I’ve lived and live in so much pain.

sometimes expressing it is so real.

you see everyday i wake up and i might be physically beaten. my back can not tolerate anything poor.

i am suddenly absorbed and concentrated on avoiding pain.

this pain speaks to me and steals my head. i sit and sometimes i am swallowed.

i’ve fought every day si...

The best part about waking up

Is getting the fuck up and living a dope ass life.

Have some coffee and kick ass.

Just simple networking

be more open to saying yes. get out and explore who you are and this world while you can.

no one can ever say ella never gave her best

content on the way both indoor and outdoor

love y’all. just got back from renting an airbnb in my city to shoot some extremely beautiful shots for you guys. i am so happy to be creating art more now. through not just drawing and learning to tattoo but by my modeling.

i want to tell you thank you so much for supporting me right now. this money is allowing me t...

I wasn't ever perfect and I liked that.

Did this self portrait in charcoal, graphite, and prisma red colored pencil

I also did it in 30minutes..... Soooooooo…. QUICKIE. 

File attached is the full version and the quality of photo is called my iPhone in my bedroom. 

Little Potato Jammers

Here is the January's 5, 6, and 7 workouts:

These are little circuits, I generally give myself 4-6 rounds of something.. because what I do to myself is, I do four and then I'm like well let's do one more for five.. I then do five and then think to myself, well I just did one more so I can do another one. 

I c...

Next sketch is:

Tell me what is the next doodle we want to see :)

Extra Sauce

Just cause I love ya.

i am wild, you can’t tame me

Just be

How do we stop running?

How does one just be?

Potato 2 to 4.

January workouts continued.. 2, 3, and 4. 

Workouts 5, 6, and 7 are coming. 

don't be a potato. 

Please keep in mind I do a dynamic warm up that lasts anywhere from 7-30 minutes long before every workout. 

WOD #2:

5x:

20 extensions, increase weight ...

Endangered Species

How many of you actually know yourselves enough to give yourself to someone completely?

Here are my demons.

Here is my light.

So.

How many of you can say you’re you?

And you accept you?

I aim to always fully be Ella.

To Be her. And to give her.

Nothing less <...

Demons come through. I am ready.

I’m always ready.

I can fall down on my face.

Show you my scars.

Cry, be naked, tell you my fears.

I’ve shown you my darkness.

I’ve wanted to take my own life.

But I stood strong.

I had more in me.

And when the time comes for help

Who do they run to?

The ...