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🌲 wintergreen 🌲

🌲 a little photo set I put together with the rejuvenating greens of winter. I am working on videos, too, I promise. but photography has captured my heart this year - especially since I got a telephoto lens for my sony this month. images 1-3 were test shots with that one since training my eyes to see in 100-400mm rather tha...

⛥ December Q&A ⛥

I'm doing this Q&A early before I forget. My schedule is pretty booked for the remainder of the year and I'm sure yours is, too. So whenever you get a chance to read this, I hope it'll be worth your while. My purring lap warmer is making it worth mine. It's her morning routine and the heavens know she loves her routines. ...

🌙 New Years Energy Healing

thank you for joining :) I hope you feel ready to embrace 2022 with fresh and pristine energy. 

watch Thursday's stream here  

⛥ November Q&A ⛥

better late than never! where has time gone in the last couple months? it's like I blink and another two weeks have come and gone. I suppose it's like that throughout holiday season. altars to decorate, treats to bake, friends to see before everyone goes home. there's no place like home. and I've made mine here. I realized th...

☯ how my mental health improved since coming to the US ☯

just a candid 3AM chat about mental health and how being in the US for the last 9 months has affected me on multiple levels. in a relatively short time I have grown not only more confident and self-assured but also open and optimistic. it may have taken longer than anticipated to start to recover from the bad mental (and phys...

November LiveChat

thank you for joining my stream :) see you next month

watch part 1 - Tuesday - here 

watch Saturday stream here 

thanksgiving ritual

what a wonderful day to bless the earth. and all of you! 

candle magic is once again in order as these beautiful, thanksgiving appropriate candles have been sitting in my cabinet waiting to be utilized in their highest pot...

🦂 autumn moods 🦂

I was going to make the fish their own set but they fit really well with the color scheme of these last nature scenery shots. mild apologies for the spam today, I work in bursts and want to free up brain space for other work. looking at these beautiful shots, I feel accomplished and I hope that these will tickle your aestheti...

🌾 idyllic 🌾

photos that make you dream of peaceful days. many of us are denied the healing experience of a simple life spent in nature. I hope these pictures will spirit you away into a fantasy that can at least attempt to give you a similar experience. earthy, yet joyful colors meet glistening foliage and sun flares. the imagery is peac...

🍂 autumn scenes 🍂

first set of autumn photos that I just got around to editing. people really don't give missouri enough credit for photo ops. I hope these scenic photos will stand as proof that the midwest is a beautiful, magical place to dwell. the doe in the last scene was sassy. as I walked past pointing at her whole family with my zoom ou...

cat food donation 2021

why can't I hold all this cat food?! 

because it weighs more than me! since our last donation in september 2020 so many of you guys have joined that we ended up with over 55 pounds of wet food, 80 pounds of dry food and 40 bags of treats. we can't thank you guys enough for supporting not only us, but many cute furr...

winter mini series

the sensory friendly fire was but a precursor for a mini series I've been planning for a while. as of a few days ago, I finally finished pre-recording all chapters to my satisfaction. fall asleep while listening to local tales, folklore and ghost stories. I will be reading to you from a book called Ozark Tales, one I had orig...

sensory friendly fire

ever wanted a cozy fire background but couldn't enjoy it because of loud pops, snaps and random noises? how would you like a gentler version of fire!

in this recording I manually removed every single loud and disruptive noise, leaving only gentle crackling and blazing for your sensory friendly enjoyment. 

but...

⛥ October download

greetings. here are all your mp3 downloads since the last download post! I'm very pleased I was able to reach a slightly higher level of productivity and hope to keep up the trend as I am extremely inspired and full of ideas. I hope you will enjoy these recordings on a regular basis and that they continue to bring you positiv...

dark background music I listen to casually

I'm back in the ambiental game with dark witchy music hand selected from the audio library.  that's right, I listened to every dark track in the audio library so you don't have to! a whole bunch of them actually combined beautifully into a witchy background playlist for all kinds of activities including, e.g., reading sp...

⛥October Q&A⛥

everything is black and gold... or trying to be. I started decorating my altar yesterday but it's not really coming together yet. I also changed my hair to red and now I don't have a pendant that matches it which is the main way I coordinate my look. in a lot of ways, it feels like I may have jumped into change too soon and I...

⛥ Unexplained ⛥

thank you for joining :) it was fun reading spooky stories for you

watch wednesday's stream here 

a meditation to end your day

if you've been using my morning meditation to go to sleep rather than wake up, look no further! this one was actually made specifically for that purpose. in this meditation I guide you through a mindfulness/gratitude exercise I personally use to create peace of mind at the end of a day. 

the idea is simple. you pro...

a meditation to start your day

how would you like to have the most relaxing morning of your life? well, with this video, that can be every day! I wrote this meditation for people who hate mornings, to create a gentle transition from sleep to waking state while setting the tone of your day to be a relaxed, positive and empowered one. too often we just kinda...

which of these video topics are you generally interested in?

since starting my channel I have been continually creating asmr videos from the topics below. just wondering which ones y'all are actually interested in. tick all that apply :)

a set of meditations

I know I've been quiet so I wanted to let you know what I've been working on. I have been pre-planning/writing/filming for several videos, the two that are going to come out next are a set of meditations - one for the morning and one for the evening. I wrote them myself so you know they're gonna be good. spiritual summer may ...

⛥October Q&A⛥

Sorry for the short absence! I've been very absorbed in a new project and other creative endeavors. Post your questions here to your favorite green card holder. Last month's post is here. Have a great Spooktober!

⛥ September LiveChat ⛥

thank you for joining :)

watch Thursday's stream here 

🌞 summer in missouri 🌞

as summer is coming to an end, I want to commemorate this magical chapter of my life with a photo set. these are all photos I took this summer which I think capture the unique charm of my state. an hommage to my new home. 

so much of it is wild and untamed. down to earth, yet lively. fields of wild flowers and suns...

⛥September Q&A⛥

It's a warm day in September. Something that virtually wouldn't happen in Germany, but here in Missouri, summer is struggling to let go. The other day I had my first pumpkin spice latte. It was from Scooters, imho the best pumpkin spice flavor. And now I'm excited for pumpkin season and all the delicious treats that come with...

goodwill is a fucking gold mine

I promise this video is more fun than it sounds. goodwill has blessed me with many nice things. this is a 20 minute video of me showing you all of them

do not take a shot for every time I say flouncy

long hard road out of hell

I don't blog as much as I used to. but after spending a day going back and tagging every single Patreon post to organize them into neat little categories (that you can browse and find stuff easier in), I learned a few things about where I've been which gave me perspective on where I'm going. 

ever since I've moved ...

🌸 faerie dream 🌸

photos that would delight faeries

fields of flowers, thistles, butterflies, a quaint, blooming grotto, a happy earth. 

I've been editing some photos I took this summer since the cat decided she needed us both up at 5 in the morning and is now very cozy back in bed while I'm numbing myself with caffeine and fa...

makeup therapy

finally, my long awaited goth/emo/alt/dark makeup video is here! this video has given me so much shit. because the preview in my software is prone to lagging, the past half week has just been me rendering, uploading and rendering again, every time finding a bunch of sound effects 1-2 seconds off. now in the 4th attempt, I thi...

✨lakes✨

some of the dreamiest photos I've taken this summer to tickle your aesthetic bone. I hope these bring you as much joy and inspiration as they do me. they are free for personal use, as always I have to say do not sell them or claim them as your own. my day is complete now that I got to look at something beautiful. spot the fis...