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Sapphic Rope Glory

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Gloria and Madeleine at the first Sapphic Slumber Party thoroughly enjoying the rope demo. The genuine delight on Madeleine’s face gets me every time. Girls teaching girls how to tie girls up. Girls letting girls tie them up. Girls taking pictures of girls learning how to tie girls up. Good times.

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In which I am forever awkward and Joie is the best wing-woman there is…

(My post yesterday about my experiences with masculine women reminded me of the hot butch bartender situation! Thought I would post this here for posterity. Real life tale from March 2015.)

Last night my bestest friend Joie and I decided to attend a munch together for the first time (a munch is a social meet up...

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Thoughts From Her Place

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Max is working in the city and I’m at her place up North with the pup. She’s curled up at my feet on the couch in the front window while I journal and smoke and listen to Lana and watch her neighbours come and go. Her neighbours probably watch me too. I’m sure they’ve noticed that I’m here more and more. I wonder wh...

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Night Shift

It’s still dark outside when she slips into bed next to me and wraps her arms around me. Dawn hasn’t broken yet and she smells like sweat and hard work. Her cheeks are cold from the frosty air on her night shift, my skin is warm under the blankets. I fell asleep thinking of her, all of my senses at once are comforted by h...

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Bathroom Bully

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This was such a fun night, and such a ridiculous scene. Elly had a “school girl gets bullied in the bathroom” fantasy and we ganged up on her to make it happen.

Elly and Heart, February 2019 (See the whole album here.) View Post

Prosecco and a Purple Wall

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Coven Photo Shoot, June 2017

Kitten, Ms.O, Joie & Elly

Photos by Heart

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This past week

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  • All of the non-covid-anxious members of my family tested positive for covid. After a year of not knowing anyone who caught it I suddenly know a dozen people who have it. (So far everyone is home recovering and I’m hoping it stays that way.)
  • They announced we’re under lockdown again, schools announced the kid...

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Throwback: Sadistic Femmes 🦋

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“How is this BDSM?” an onlooker asked, with good reason. In the midst of a raucous kinky gay-lady party, Kitten was naked, face down on a blanket on the floor, while many hands worked at applying fake butterfly tattoos to her back.

“One thing Kitten hates more than anything is being wet, especially t...

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Seeing Triple

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I couldn’t pick one... so you get all 3.

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Today on the phone...

Her: You like it when I’m a bully.

Me: Naooooooooooo! I do not.

Her: You do! If I showed up at your place, walked in the front door and told you to get on your knees you would love it.

Me: 😳

Her: I can hear the face you’re making. I’m right.

Me: Shut up!

Her: I bet you’re wet ...

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Selfies in my Best Friends’ Closet ♥️

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I’m feeling a little better this week but it’s been busy keeping on top of everything! I took some selfies in Joie’s closet for you today in my little break between work calls.

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Late Night Peach Pics 🍑

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Throwback to Darker Studios late at night in January 2019. Lace and lingerie and waiting my turn to pose for the camera. Peep the roses in the back left corner.

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Cute girl feet and other things that make me sigh.

I remember the room being full of sound, old jazz, squeals of delight as guests all around made their little dreams come true, smacks and moans and oooooooooh’s.

She was lounging in a claw footed tub filled with lace and roses. (What a sentence.)

I asked her if I could take a picture of her cute feet, she said...

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Touchstone

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Just one of those days where I need to remind myself that I was once a half naked fairy muse who could be found sometimes in the middle of the night in strange dark rooms in New York City.

Photos like this are a touchstone these days for the Before Times, and they keep hopes high that I’ll be a half naked fairy muse ...

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A Letter To Yourself, A Bloom & A Kiss 💌🌺💋

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Joie sent me a link to this cool website that I thought you guys would enjoy. You write yourself a letter and it sends it to you either 1 or 5 years from now. I just wrote myself one for next year, maybe you want to write to your future-self too. (I’m not affiliated, just thought it was neat.)

Also! I’ve had this C...

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No April Fool ♥️

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One year ago today I stopped talking to my shitty ex (Cub/Mr.J). For years I had been strung along by his manipulation, and I’d been hurt by him more times than I could count. And for some reason I still picked up the phone when he called, and texted him back when he was in need. I knew it was a habit I had to quit but I s...

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Nihilist Teddy Bear Says Hi ♥️

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Here is a list of shit that has happened in the past two weeks:

  • I had to lecture my kids’ dad about his lax covid practices and the risk he was bringing to our household by having so much exposure. 🙄
  • I gritted my teeth while he mentioned he was off the wagon and no longer working actively towards sobri...

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Blooming for Her at the End of the World

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(I submitted this piece to a local project about the pandemic and how folks have kept positive during difficult times. They said I’m allowed to share it here with you too! It’s mostly stitched together from things I’ve shared here this past year, lovebird things.)

‪“I miss your face and I’m glad I f...

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Chiming in on the Lola Bunny Discourse

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I’ll admit I’d never seen Space Jam until I started dating Max, who is younger than me and always said I gave her “bugs bunny heart eyes”. She called me her Lola Bunny. And then we watched it with my kids. And I giggled even harder at the reference. These are my jammies at her house. I sleep in them and then leave the...

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New Lana Album Feels

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“Honey, you make me feel I'm invincible

Just like I wanted

No more candle in the wind

It's not like I'm invisible

Not like before when I was burning at both ends.”

Yosemite, by Lana Del Rey

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HIDE YOUR EYES

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It makes me so mad that photos like this are censored on Tumblr and Instagram. I get it, there’s a painting of me masturbating in the background, it’s all very gay.

But there is no nudity in this photo, and there are no genitals. It was me and Elly and her cat Toothless in bed on a beautiful day. There’s nothing ...

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Inspiration

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(Small note: this weekend I posted “Want a Postcard” and neglected to mention the contest is open to EVERYONE, not just postcard club folks! Please pop over to that post and leave a comment and you’ll be entered for a chance to win this month’s babely postcard!)

When I was first separating from my husb...

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Where the wild things are...

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Ms.O and I had a bonfire today to ring in Spring.

We spent the afternoon on my porch in the sun, sipping tea while the pup chewed sticks to smithereens.

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Want a postcard?

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I have an extra postcard from this month’s Postcard Club. (It’s not the picture here, it’s a surprise still!) THIS IS OPEN TO EVERYONE!

This quote on Joie’s fridge makes me grin, comment with a rule you love breaking. I’ll pick a random winner Sunday night and mail you a postcard!

(This is also open to ...

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WHAT A GIFT 🙀

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This week I got a big package in the mail and I was so surprised.... ANNA KNITTED ME A FUCKING SWEATER!!!

This is one of the best gifts I’ve ever received and it’s also now my very favourite most treasured piece of clothing. The colours??? The giant oversized sleeves for my sensory-sensitive ass??? The fleur-de-lis ...

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Wanting.

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Spring is here and I want to eat it up. Give me soil, feed me green, sustain me with birdsong.

I’ve been rebirthed too, last Spring I was Persephone, dragged further underground, this Spring I’ve returned, heavy with flowers that will bloom in the Summer.

There will be no more descending, the spell was cast ...

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“Don’t Touch Me”

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I miss being a tease so much that I restrained my girlfriends’ hands today and sat on her face with my panties on... grinding against her gently with the fabric in the way... frustrating her so much, I giggled when I heard the clank of the restraints as she reached towards me, unable to get what she wanted, fingers grasping...

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First Sign of Spring 🌱

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I was walking the dog, a million things on my mind, when she stopped to pee. I was staring at the pussy willows before I realized what I was looking at. Spring is here!!!

It’s a little earlier than usual for around these parts so I didn’t trust it at first, but pussy willows don’t lead me wrong, they show up when...

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Back to regular posting tomorrow!

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Photo by Guy New York - Brooklyn, 2018

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Afternoon Chillin’

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I remember taking this photo with Guy New York and giggling together while we waited for Piper to get ready for our afternoon plans...

Guy and Piper are looking for a new apartment, which means that last time I was there was unknowingly the last time I’d ever be there. I’m excited to visit again one day and see thei...

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