Overview of the current situation with me, an unexpected and very bad development today, an idol dealing with a ghost problem, three rules of idol, and a scathing, real look into this fantasy-turned-nightmare
Added 2021-05-06 18:18:03 +0000 UTCWell, that's quite a dark title, ain't it? Sorry for the hyperdramatic speak... I suppose things aren't all that bad. But I'm not gonna lie... this is the absolute darkest post I've ever put on here. Some really horrible garbage has happened, and still continues to happen, and I am asking all of you to endure the nearly two hour run time of this post to hear about what's going on, and provide me with your very best commentary. Please. This one is very important.
I didn't mention anybody's names. I kept the privacy intact of those involved, but... you guys can probably figure out who I'm talking about. I was very scathing and brutally honest about them... and now... I feel like I have to re-purpose myself to head in kind of a different direction/path.
Or not?
I guess we'll see.
I talk about the three rules of idol as well, and that's going to sound super cynical, but it's coming from a place of experience and years of being in this business as both fan and staff. And I also talk about my current financial situation needing immediately addressed.
But I also talk about one idol who seems to be having a ghost problem? Lol. And another idol who just took a gigantic step forward in her career as she recorded her very first song and it's absolutely mind-blowing, brilliant, and frickin brutal beyond words.
I also believe that for every problem you have, you should be the first person to look for a solution to the problem. So I offer my ideas on how to fix these current issues. However, I am DESPERATELY hoping for some deep commentaries from ALL of you as to all of this. And for the more analytical individuals in my Patreon support circle, I welcome charts, graphs, monthly breakdowns of finances, etc. Whatever you want to share, please do.
I realize that this post might actually be incredibly worrisome, in regards to just how far down in the hole I am mentally right now, and also this post might seem like I'm being overly brutal with my thoughts and calling out some of the people who I work with who have now become seemingly enemies and not friends (if they ever were actually my friends, who really knows. The word "friendship" has an entirely different meaning here in Japan than in America). I realize that a lot of my problems are of my own doing, as I'm a circle gaijin trying to fit into a square Japan. But... it doesn't excuse how people can be so cruel and vicious here and for no good reason. I'm all for cruelty to those who deserve it, but... I don't think I have done anything to deserve the way I've been treated by people here. And it's heart-breaking to me because I am a cheerleader for so many of these groups and would die for their idols without hesitation if somebody were to try to hurt any of them... but this doesn't matter at all to any of these people. None of it does... and that is where this gets really tricky for me. I live now in the "Upside down world", as Miho calls her homeland, and either I learn to walk on the ceiling or I'll end up falling to the ground over and over again. You feel me?
I hope you'll somehow enjoy this very long post (and I'm truly sorry for the length, if it's bothersome to you). And please know that my heart right now is propped up by your love.
So be helpful in your responses to this, okay?
Thank you so so much. As always.
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Comments
Hi Derek, about the whole shitty situation, you know I am always available to talk. So i´ll keep it short here. But for the Idol with the ghost I can add my own little ghost story. I live in a house that is about 120 years old. And we have a ghost. Everyone in my family has seen it. I´ve seen it four times so far. The entity is visible for about a minute every couple of years. It´s not aggressive – thank god. I´ve seen poltergeist videos and this is no fun. Our house ghost is like a human shadow. You see a shape of a normal human body. Head Shoulders, arms, legs. Just like a shadow that stands right in front of you. Inside it´s a little flickering air – pretty similar like hot air at a barbeque. Just not that strong. The being is fully aware of us, I saw it looking directly at me. One time it manifested about two meters before me. I walked in front of it and put my hand through it. It felt like you hold your hand in a fridge. It´s peaceful. But it´s definitely something you´ve got to see to believe it. I try to get a photo of it for years. Since we are in the smartphone era and i now always have one in my pocket i wait for the next time it appears. Regarding the remaining costs for Flowers of Passion: Now is the perfect time to fix your base shop. As far as I know people need a way to get that. Put some Discs in stores. A bunch of the remaining costs should be compensated that way. Especially if you can talk most of the idols promote it somehow. Boosting your Patreon is another thing. Your Podcast is awesome and more people who are in our bubble should hear it. An additional video format sounds like a great way to guide Patreons into one higher tier than the podcast one. , Also i´d definitely buy an XXL Idol Underworld Shirt.
Svensei
2021-05-10 08:25:12 +0000 UTC
