Stuff I've Been Doing (sorta)

Um so yeah I haven't been doing things lately as I've been concerned about my Cat Cleo (as any of you who follow me on Twitter would be aware by now, kinda been melting down in public a bit). Looks like she's in stage 4 of her kidney disease. I'm paying about 1.5 grand for vetcare and tests and drip feeding and kidney flushing just so we know for sure and to keep her going a little bit longer, even if its just one last day at home (worth every penny just for a minute, love this cat so much.) We just visited her at the vet and she did this thing where she headbutts my hand when I go to stroke her, she always does that and I thought I wouldn't get to feel her do that again and she did it and it gave me a real high, it felt so good, I was convinced she'd never feel strong enough to do that again.

I'm not getting my hopes up that they can reverse any of the damage, just cherishing every moment we have left with her. She's been so great for me and Emily, if I haven't mentioned before, both of us have long histories with depression and I was really worried about Emily's around when we first decided to get her. Cleo was on stage 3 of 4 when we got her, so we knew she wasn't long for this world and she had a great summer with me and Emily, she was so bright and full of life we almost forgot she was terminally ill. Rest assured I'm gonna be putting together a teary tribute video, I never had her on the channel before cause she never seemed to like being filmed that much so I'd always have to sneakily record her playing before she realised what I was doing. (She is a sassy and bossy cat so I respect her wishes)

Anyway while I'm concerned with all this, that leads to the question of videos...also its December tomorrow and a colleague at work is away all month and I have a lot on my plate.....yyyeah that idea of finishing series 11 reviews before the end of the year that I had a couple of weeks ago sounding veeeeeery optimistic now.

I don't wanna scrap all my plans, working on videos relaxes me and takes my mind off the world; I'm just not gonna expect myself to get asss much done as I'd hoped. I'm vaguely scheduling it as follows but not holding myself to it cause I don't feel so hot at the moment. I got so overwrought with crying the other day cause of Cleo worry I had to spend most of the day in bed (I also had had manflu coming on for several days and that was sorta the culmination of it)

Um, so yeah, vague December schedule maybe: (+ Cleo tribute video, but that's gonna be just for me really)

Review of the Chilling Adventures of Sabrina (have done audio track already, so we're not far off)

HWM - Demons of Punjab

Blunt Xmas TV Guide 2018

Traditional End of year update video

That should get all my Patron faces in (Regular reminder to $5 patrons, send pictures to: stubagful@gmail.com) and that little lot sees the year's content out sufficiently and seems doable, all things going on at the moment considered.