The Patreon Podcast - Episode 113 - Whoops, I Broke My Brain
Added 2021-06-26 11:21:53 +0000 UTCSo, this one gets a little heavy, mental health wise. I talk about an upcoming collab though, so that's fun!
- Dan
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Can recommend reading up on the diagnoses and if you still feel like they might apply, and they are a hindrance in your day to day life, see about getting them diagnosed!
Elias Lipka
2021-07-04 11:57:03 +0000 UTCFuck, did I write this? Wow, that's a scarily simillar exprience to me.
MxChatter
2021-07-03 22:01:35 +0000 UTCI'm a bit confused, isn't a deadline thus panic how everyone works? Isn't that why deadlines exist as a motivator? I mean the most infamous author GRRM is also this. No deadline = no drive?
Mark Fletch
2021-07-01 03:00:32 +0000 UTCI just got diagnosed with ADHD (or ADD if you will) myself at 25. My being "gifted" masked it through most of my childhood, which meant I never was bad at school stuff until very late and yet had a pretty standard social experience for an ADHD kid, being labelled "class clown" and such. Is interesting to think that my anxiety might also have played a part in that masking, since I was also diagnosed with autism (together with the ADHD (no I'm not a functional human being)) and that has resulted in a shit-ton of social anxiety, meaning I never acted out.
Elias Lipka
2021-06-30 20:35:17 +0000 UTCThey won't give you therapy because WHAT!?
Pantscada
2021-06-30 15:07:47 +0000 UTCHonestly, I think that what you have might be what's going on with me (to an extremely lesser degree) because I have anxiety and many people think I have ADHD. I also went through the stomach migraine thing when I was about 11. I never get my work done till the night before its due and I think this explains it for me too. I think I should bring this up to my therapist. Thank you for the insight Dan!
Mr_Ozzy71
2021-06-28 22:20:48 +0000 UTCFuck, I suddenly found out some stuff about myself. Can't say it was enjoyable, but it's probably for the better. Thanks, Dan, for sharing these thoughts, and having more constructive effects on my life than any youtube channel could be expected to have.
Jorg2
2021-06-28 18:56:10 +0000 UTCIt's a topic that could be a good conversation but the athletic defenders aren't in it for sport sadly, they only give a toss about women's sports when trans people get mentioned, and half the time defending sports is just a crowbar to beat trans children with.
Aeon Blu
2021-06-28 10:25:31 +0000 UTCI propose we stop needlessly gendering sports and have people compete based on actual ability
Mireaze
2021-06-27 22:11:16 +0000 UTComg i remember dan complaining about "influencer" lol
Paint
2021-06-27 20:01:17 +0000 UTCi've never seen lord of the rings and i don't have any interest in watching it
Paint
2021-06-27 19:34:33 +0000 UTCWoww the entire opening of this resonates so hard with me, as a uni student who has just tapped out of being anxious about the work I'm not doing, and has found it SO hard to get in gear as a result. So, you're not in this alone I guess 😂
Mundane Pixels
2021-06-27 18:12:56 +0000 UTCI carry the diagnosis for cPTSD, general anxiety disorder, clinical depression, and ADHD and it's incredibly difficult to get things done anymore as well. People like us, to some extent, functioned on routine to get things done. We just had the greatest mass disruption to routine I can think of in history; so not only did you lose part of your own mad genius self that let you function, but we all kind of lost the social construction we could lean on and let guide us when our brains took a vacation. In true mentally ill fashion, I can't remember where I was going for this. I think I was trying to tell you you're not alone. I mean, yea, I'm a rando from the internet and you might not even read this, but there are people like you in your community and we just want you to know you're not alone.
Anthony Phillips
2021-06-27 12:45:56 +0000 UTCas a trans person, I also struggle with the debate on trans athletes as trying to educate myself usually leads me to more transphobes and thats exhausting
Ethan Pender
2021-06-27 09:45:59 +0000 UTCI feel the anxiety as a coping mechanism because I think it was keeping my depression from overtaking. I had both my mother and my grandmother I've been living with die in the past five years, coupled with an anti-anxiety medication (that I do need or else the depression gets to out of hand) means university is just a blob of nothing to the monkey part of my brain that decides where to get the dopamine. Here's to hoping you get a better coping mechanism, and if you do I wouldn't mind if you shared it
just some jal
2021-06-27 07:36:32 +0000 UTCThat's pretty much what happened to me in school as well. Depression just started to take over.
Magical Wendy
2021-06-26 23:35:46 +0000 UTCPlease never plan these podcasts! I love the random thoughts format
Ties van Asseldonk
2021-06-26 20:36:02 +0000 UTCFun fact, my anxiety is the only thing keeping my depression in check. Because any time I think about harming myself I end up having a panic attack over how I think people will react and how harming myself will be bad for my health. Which I guess is a good thing? I also can't take pills for it cus I'm hyper sensitive to the side effects thanks to the anxiety, and NHS won't give me therapy cus trans
Mireaze
2021-06-26 20:15:37 +0000 UTCWhat you need is a boss, someone who will tell you: "right Daniel you've said you want to record a plays video on [insert game here] here are your allocated hours for you to do that" OR "right Daniel you've said you want to record a plays video on [insert game here] here is your deadline" Choose the one that works best for you
AtticSalt
2021-06-26 19:37:31 +0000 UTCI can relate, Daniel. I've got a therapist, too and yeah... It's giving me a lot to think about and fucking hell it's crazy.
Omega McKinlay
2021-06-26 18:30:22 +0000 UTCvery much the same, it would be nice if it could be recognised in any official capacity Also, self Dx is absolutely valid, it's okay, you're doing great congratulations on being able to do things like talk to people and stuff, I always wish I could have warmed up to that in my own pace and do it slowly, but oh well. I've got my own home now and I can take as much time as I want to, get home deliveries, always make sure that I'm in for deliveries because I can go weeks without needing to leave windows 11 scares me, I'm still on 7 hahaha I need to upgrade ;-;
Sandwich247
2021-06-26 18:19:35 +0000 UTChe h. hey funny story when i got depressed as fuck it cancelled out my anxiety so i didnt do anything !! so y. yeah. relatable brain uve got dan
elis one l
2021-06-26 17:43:13 +0000 UTCDan, don’t ever plan these. The stream of consciousness format is what makes them enjoyable to listen
Charles Rowe
2021-06-26 17:18:10 +0000 UTCThis is very relatable. I find it interesting that Rebecca was doing watchalongs of Avatar Legend of Aang, and Dan, like Zuko, lost his driver for firebending/work, fear/anxiety (~15m in) Logically, Dan, you need to find the last 2 bookwriting dragons and dance with them. That aside, take care Dan.
Michael Edmonston
2021-06-26 17:02:45 +0000 UTCIm only 20 mins in to this but i have to put my thoughts down as i have adhd and will forget them otherwise 😂. A lot of what you have said is very common and i relate to loads. A lot of people with adhd realise that anxiety is what has been masking their adhd for so long and when thats removed and you don't mask as much you get to see the full effect of your adhd. Up untill now the anxiety has been a semi successful treatment for the adhd symptoms but has had awful side effects. Thats why replacing it with a better coping mechanism/treatment is a good idea, whether that be therapy specifically designed for adhd (cbt is a common one, and when designed for adhd brains it works much better for us than cbt designed for neurotypicals) or stimulant medication. I know you've said you dont want meds due to not wanting to lose the way your brain works, but thats not entirely the way stimulant meds work. They dont take away our gifts but instead give us better control of them. This video explains it much better and it has an actual doctor saying it : https://youtu.be/38qpm6VKBFc (skip to around 4.20 if you just want the doctors bit) (also this channel is great and really helped me get a better understanding of my adhd). The stimulants act like the fear you needed to start things without the shitty anxiety. Of course they're not for everyone and theres a million different ways to help adhd and meds don't fix everything, but at least in my opinion they do sound like they would help you :)
BananaTycoon
2021-06-26 16:48:41 +0000 UTCA very interesting listen young Daniel, my brain is rarely off and since a young lad I’ve listened to audiobooks each night to give my brain something to focus on when falling asleep, otherwise I just lay awake thinking 🤷🏻♂️ Have fond memories of a yellow Blackadder cassette 😂🤣
Richard Grayson
2021-06-26 13:26:21 +0000 UTCI can relate to a lot of the mental health stuff you talked about I think, I always do stuff at the last minute which is probably an indication of ADHD (and maybe mild anxiety) but because I never miss any work no one ever suspects I have any difficulty. I should probably talk to a medical professional before self diagnosing tho lol.
Jellex
2021-06-26 13:24:36 +0000 UTC❤️❤️❤️
aidan alder
2021-06-26 12:32:32 +0000 UTCI couldn't relate more to Dan's realisations in this. Thank you for speaking out so confidently about it all ❤️
Smee
2021-06-26 12:05:48 +0000 UTCReaaaalllly relate to a lot of this, Dan. Hope you're coping as best you can. 💙
Casey Holloway
2021-06-26 11:58:40 +0000 UTC
