The Genius.
Added 2022-10-08 07:59:35 +0000 UTCI'm in this weird state of questioning everything I intend to do because unrelenting stress has clicked my brain over into constant panic mode. I decided to just post this because I felt like I needed to post something even if it isn't very interesting. Even explaining what's going on seems like something I shouldn't do anymore. In the past I've been extremely open about my life, but I feel like the weight of it might bring you guys down too much. I know it's really hard for everyone right now and I don't want to add to that for any of you. Mom and I keep telling each other that we'll get through all of this and I'm not sure if we're just lying to each other as a coping mechanism, or if things will actually get better soon.
I could tell you so many stories about the stuff we've packed into the death shed. A lot of Grandma's stuff has been donated or given away, but the stuff mom felt compelled to keep is strange, varied, and voluminous. Much of grandpa's stuff is in there, as well as some of my Uncle Jon and Jason's things. Some of Jon's stuff went to his oldest son to parcel out to his siblings, but Jason died unmarried and childless, so some of his things just sort of hung around. The way you sentimentally keep things as a reminder, but then never look at or do anything with. I fear that is what will happen with Grandma and Grandpa's stuff. It will rot in the death shed until whoever inherits it is left to deal with it. A strange treasure trove of outdated electronics and keepsakes, most with no obvious value.
Anyway, I should probably just cut this short and do something else. So thanks for your support. I know the value for money has been declining, but I'm really trying very hard to keep my head above water. Hopefully that at least comes through. I'll talk to you later.
Comments
By all means, vent. It helps. Yes, it's hard right now, and yes, it will get better. I understand about panic mode...I spent months on the other side of the country helping to care for my father while he was dying. I was the only one who could move him and the only one who could be available at any time, so eventually I was afraid to leave the house for more than a few minutes. It was indescribably painful to watch him deteriorate. It took me a long time to come down from that place after he was gone.
2022-10-24 02:32:55 +0000 UTCI hear your pain. I've been reading a couple webcomics since they started forever ago. This being one of 2 still surviving is an accomplishment. The cheezy jokes, the horrible puns, the relationships. Your stories have made this slowly growing old, horrendously lonely man-child forget about his pain and trauma for a bit every page. Fight the good fight, keep fighting.
Zain Redding
2022-10-09 07:44:17 +0000 UTCI find that your characters who <i>think</i> they're smart (e.g., Wesley) pale in comparison to the ones who really <i>are</i> more intelligent. Isn't that like real life! I still have a lot of my parents' stuff in my possession. I went down the cellar stairs this morning and saw two adjustable wrenches in my tool box. One was one my Dad had when I was a little guy; the other was one I bought for myself later. Much of the contents of Dad's desk (and by extension, my parents' bedroom) are locked up in my storage unit. No idea what to do with it all.
Perfesser Bear
2022-10-09 00:03:15 +0000 UTCHey Jackie--Keep at it. Break all that big stuff into little tasks and do what you can. Praise yourself for each task done for the victory is it. We appreciate everything you post. From my perspective you are doing great! You've got this!
2022-10-08 15:57:01 +0000 UTCShe's a beautiful genius
Matt R
2022-10-08 15:28:01 +0000 UTCHey Jackie? You matter to me. You are a person to me, not just the creator of a comic I love very much. That means I want to hear how you're doing. Even if it's bad. Especially if it's bad and talking about it will help. My Discord DMs are always open to you if you want a more one-on-one medium to talk. Seems like I'm not the only one that values your honesty, reading the other comments, though. 😄
Arcblade (Sarah)
2022-10-08 14:12:47 +0000 UTCPersonally, I have a bad habit of not telling people the things that bother me. I'm trying to get out of that. I say lay it on me, man, it's actually sort of encouraging how honest you are about this stuff.
Obinna Onyeije
2022-10-08 13:39:03 +0000 UTCLife is a bitch sometimes. You don't HAVE to bottle things up all the time, and venting can help. If you need to you know where to find me and I may not respond right away bit I will asap. You do amazing work and if being an outlet can help you in the long run then go for it. But never feel you have to keep your troubles to yourself man.
Rikki
2022-10-08 13:05:38 +0000 UTCIf talking to us helps you, I'm very happy to listen.
Joseph Bonnar
2022-10-08 12:01:47 +0000 UTCThanks for the update! I can’t speak for everyone, but honestly, reading your blog posts at the end of a page and hearing about your life always helps me feel a little less alone in things. My experiences are pretty different from yours, but that doesn’t make me value what you share any less. I may not do much with it, but your stories stay with me, and help me appreciate the things I have. Anything you share has been worth something to me, so thank you, and please know at least one person is glad for this!
Selene Jensen
2022-10-08 08:04:38 +0000 UTC
