OnFireFit

Again!

Added 2022-08-09 11:00:04 +0000 UTC

Good morning!

Oh how the Holy Spirit leads……so amazing to me.

I had a challenge…..deciding whether to go visit a friend or stay back to get things in order with my son’s school. There were multiple factors involved. I hemmed. I hawed. And in the end, decided not to go.

I felt like such a horrible friend. I felt like I let her down. Upon talking to her, I realized that I hadn’t let her down but yeah, the back and forth with all the factors to consider was a bit of a roller coaster for her. Then I felt rotten again.

But, as she said, it wasn’t a big deal. I sat there with tears running down my face trying not to say anything to her because she’d be able to tell in my voice.

And then it hit me. Performance. I didn’t meet the standards I set for myself where friendship is concerned. I was trying to meet the parenting standard I set and the friendship standard and I couldn’t make them both fit at the same time.

I realized through the gentleness of the finger of the Spirit on me that I am not a bad friend or a bad parent. The intent of my heart was right. I needed to get over Performance issues….once again.

As I explained that to my friend, she said “then that’s it! That’s why this all had to happen the way it did! Isn’t God so great?! We got to talk through this and it is all for the better!”

We went on to talk about the various recurring issues we each deal with in ourselves. We could relate and laugh. It all felt like a worthwhile, albeit painful at times, adventure through life.

I’m grateful for friends who share this adventure with me, have grace with me, have understanding with me and take the ride with me! I’m grateful that the Spirit bursts in the darkness with light that changes my heart in an instant!

It is He who reveals the profound and hidden things;

He knows what is in the darkness,

And the light dwells with Him. -Daniel 2:22