雑記

自分の絵に対するただのボヤキです。（読まなくて大丈夫）

最近、自分の絵がめちゃくちゃフワフワしてる。キャラの特徴に寄せることばかり優先させて自分の持ち味が活かせないアウェーで戦ってる感じがする。アークナイツはキャラによって担当絵描きが違うから本当にキャラクターデザインがバラバラで描くたびに違う刺激と発見を貰えるのだけど、反面自分の持ち味が右に左に揺らされて自分らしさがわからなくなる感じがある。例えばグラベルとかパヒューマーの亜人種によくある目の瞳孔を白で描くタイプのキャラ、ウルピスフォリアのような横長の目は特に描きにくく、落ち着く形がわからなくなる。綺麗めギャルとかでよくある横長の目は描き慣れていないだけなのだが、目の瞳孔が白いキャラはなぜ白いのかが理解不能で無思考で白くしている。そのせいで収まりが悪く感じてしまい結局、元絵を踏襲する事になる。ちなみに、目のハイライトがデカくて瞳孔に丸かぶりする感じだと無理やり納得してるけど、やっぱ無理あるだろと。アニメの色彩設計の人はそういう種族と割り切ってるらしい。なんにせよ私のような、描写の理由を考えたりキャラの特徴を掴んで相手の絵に寄せようとするタイプの絵かきは人の絵の2次創作ばかりしていると自分の基準がフラフラになりやすいのかも。オリキャラ、あるいは初音ミクのような1.5次創作のように自分の内面から出てくる形を完全に優先させれる絵を描かないといつまで経っても自分らしさが固まらないように感じた。別にアークナイツだって自分の形を優先すればいいと思うかもしれないのだけど、私の場合何度も同じキャラクターを描くことでそのキャラの持つ基準と私の持つ基準が馴染んでくるもので、350人近くいるキャラの中から毎回別キャラ描いてるとそういうことにならず、それでも自分の描きやすいようにすると、毎回同じ顔で服装が違うだけになるのだが、それってどうなのよ？と思ってしまう。でも逆に、絵を見てこれはこの人の絵柄だ！と容易にわかるためにはたとえ同じ顔の貼り付けみたいになろうが自分の基準を大事にしないといけない。

(Google translation)

Miscellaneous

Recently, my drawings have become really fluffy. I feel like I'm fighting away from home, prioritizing the characteristics of the characters and not being able to make the most of my own strengths. In Arknights, each character has a different illustrator, so the character designs are really different and I get new stimulation and discoveries every time I draw, but on the other hand, I feel like my strengths are swaying from side to side and I'm losing sight of who I am.For example, characters with white pupils, which is common among sub-races such as Gravel and Perfumer, and long horizontal eyes like those of Vulpisfolia are particularly difficult to draw, and I can't figure out what looks good. I'm just not used to drawing long horizontal eyes, which are common among pretty gals, but I can't understand why characters with white pupils are white, so I make them white without thinking. Because of that, it doesn't feel right, and I end up following the original drawing. By the way, I try to force myself to accept that the highlights in the eyes are big and cover the pupils, but I think that's just impossible. It seems that anime color designers have accepted this as a race. In any case, artists like me who think about the reasons for the depiction and try to grasp the characteristics of the character and make it look like the other person's drawing may easily lose their standards if they are constantly creating derivative works of other people's drawings.I felt that I would never be able to solidify my own style unless I drew original characters or 1.5-generation creations like Hatsune Miku, where I could completely prioritize the form that comes from within. You might think that it's fine to prioritize your own form in Arknights as well, but in my case, by drawing the same character many times, the character's standards and my own standards become familiar to me. This doesn't happen when I draw a different character from the nearly 350 characters I have, and even if I draw it in a way that is easy for me to draw, it ends up being the same face with different clothes every time, which makes me wonder what's wrong with that. In any case, in order to easily recognize that this is this person's style when looking at a picture, even if it looks like a pasted-on version of the same face, I have to value my own standards. Take care of yourself.