What happened with Sen'i?

After all was said and done, I decided that the Sen'i project might not be something I need to do or want to do. As you know, Sen'i was intended to be a smaller step towards finding my passion again. A lesser commitment to see if I even had it in me anymore. And that effort is very much a work in progress. There are still days where I just don't think I can work on games ever again. And there are days where I feel super inspired and motivated to start something new. I lean towards the latter lately. But I don't want to make any commitments yet.

Right now, my focus has to be my professional work that makes an income. That means my graphic design and web design work, as well as this new Hippo game project. The Hippo game allows me to work on somebody else's thing for a while and I don't even have time to work on a personal project, even if I wanted to. That mandatory break from my own projects is definitely a good thing. But knowing that the Hippo game should be finished around the time I return to Nara in December, I have been thinking about whether I want to keep pursuing this game development dream. And if I do, what would that look like?

I do think that if I'm gonna do it at all, it needs to be something real and substantial. I can't be putting my energy into a "lesser commitment" thing. So Sen'i is cancelled. And any ideas I had for that would be folded into the next major thing, if it were to be Sanctuary related. I'm gonna make these decisions when I am in Nara. I am giving myself the time to finish Hippo, go to Nara, take a real break, and then see where my mind is at next year.

Nara is where I started this journey, and I want to let it guide me in the next phase. If I return to Thailand next February feeling like game dev just ain't it, then that's what it is. I will pursue my other ideas I have that are art and gaming related, but I don't HAVE to be a game developer to enjoy things like video games and toys and anime and animals and... life. I got into all of this stuff for joy. And if it isn't bringing me joy anymore, I should easily step away. Nara and a real break will let me know where my heart is at.