R.J. Rhodes

RJ Ramblings

Added 2021-06-21 13:17:45 +0000 UTC

Hi everybody.

This last week has been pretty rough mentally. Birthdays are always kind of weird for me. I feel like I don't ask for much - I kind of just stay to myself and work on the computers most days. I don't ask for my friends and family to do a lot for me. But birthdays are a little different. Birthdays raise my expectations and invariably, I get disappointed.

Last week was no real exception. Maybe it's because I expect to be depressed now, after so many years. Or maybe I just expect too much of the people around me, but my birthday was probably the worst day I've had in a while. The day after, my partner and I had a pretty big argument, which just made things worse.

Then Father's Day is always hard for me, because I miss my dad a LOT.

So yeah, last week was hard. I feel okay right now. My partner and I had a good weekend. We're okay. Things will get better. Just a bad few days.

That's it for me. Gonna bury myself in work now. Hope you all have a great week. Love ya!