RJ Ramblings

Hey everybody! 

This last week has been pretty rough once again. Not living at home just sucks. The bed sucks. My back has been killing me. I haven't slept good since the fire. The dogs are driving me crazy, because they don't have a back yard to play in and are feeling cooped up too. Just high stress levels all around. 

Also, I feel like I'm not getting the help I need by those around me, but I think that's mostly just on me. Like, I'll see something that needs to be done, and I just do it. I can't leave it undone like my partner or my roommate or my sister can. So then I do it, and then I see something else that needs to be done, so I do that. Then it just feels like I'm doing everything and everybody else is just sitting around leaving things undone so that I will do them later. It's a bit maddening and stressful because it feels like everything is on my shoulders, even though I don't think it actually is. Like, if I would just NOT do the things, eventually somebody else would take care of it. It's just difficult, because I want the things taken care of right now. I know this bit is extra rambly, I hope you get what I'm talking about and that I don't just come across as a crazy lady. Oh well.

Aside from the constant stress, and working on the game (which I always enjoy and is not stressful), I have mostly been working on my Blender lessons. I have a bunch of games to play, and I've played a little of it in my spare time, but honestly I've just been enjoying learning Blender more than playing games at the moment. 

Last week in Blender, I modeled a chess set. So I build every single piece, the board, and set up the cameras and lighting. I'm pretty proud of that. I feel like I'm learning a lot that will eventually be useful in Come Home, or more likely, future games. 

And now on Blender I'm working on modelling, rigging, and creating an animation for a lamp, similar to the beginning of the Pixar movies. It's pretty exciting!

Anyway, that's pretty much it for me. Today is July 4th, Independence Day, but I'm not feeling very independent at the moment, and we're not doing anything to celebrate. Gonna stay at home and work and maybe watch some TV. 

Hope you all are doing great. Love ya!