rinuyi

Extra photos!

Added 2023-07-31 13:31:34 +0000 UTC

Hi hi some extra photos that I didn’t end up adding to the set last month. Hope you guys like them!

Also I’m gonna rant so if you r here just to see ass and don’t wanna hear first world problems feel free to skip this part :

I’ve been really struggling with balancing my life, like I don’t hate my work and I wanna be in the industry for but my depression is kicking ass and leaving me with no energy to do anything I enjoy after I’m done with work. I barely have time or energy for Patreon but I don’t really don’t want to quit because I enjoy it and supports me financially (as my pay from my day job isn’t that well paying right now) My whole weekend is just me sleeping lol I’m not complaining but I really feel like I’m on the edge and feel like offing myself. The job isn’t even bad but the sheer exhaustion that comes with it. I’ve been on my meds for 2yrs and I didn’t really have a proper job where I worked full time so maybe I didn’t notice it effecting me that much but I am constantly so sleepy and tired. It wasn’t an issue before because I could just sleep or I’d have the next day off. Now that I work full time everything is a struggle I am so tired it makes me wanna kill myself bad. I haven’t even been able to stream either :( or even clean or eat properly because of how much life is consuming me. I honestly wish I could just pause time but that’s not possible so sometimes it feels like killing myself is the only way out lol. I just feel like a failure because I can’t even work normally without wanting to kill myself or be depressed. I feel like eventually I’ll snap and kill myself or quit my job and end up broke. Ideally I wish I could just presue streaming and cosplaying full time but that’s not realistic I guess.

Thanks for reading all of this bs and the support for being on my Patreon regardless as it helped me tremendously. Love you all💕