The Reality of it all!
Added 2020-04-15 22:43:29 +0000 UTCI haven’t really taken the time to talk about it much but there is a lot going on in the world right now. Covid has pretty much shattered day to day life for everyone and it’s a scary time. Some people are more directly effected than others, but even the smallest changes can take a toll on us.
In a grand sense my life hasn’t changed that much. But there is a laundry list of small things that have made day to day difficult. And these small things may not seem important but they nag at you. They sit in the back of you head and effect you from behind the scenes. Things are weird right now but I’m counting my blessings and trying my best to stay sane.
It’s easy to keep saying “its not really that different” or “it not that bad” but it’s important not to lie to yourself. I’m so fucking thankful for everything I still have and I know I’m in a better position than many of my friend and family. That said, I’m still allowed to feel.
I’m rambling but I just want you all to know that it’s ok not to be ok. And you don’t need to compare you suffering to others. It’s also ok to feel okay. And it’s also ok to not know how to feel. All I ask is that your honest with yourself.
Patreon is supposed to be an escape for you all so there won’t be much Covid talk, but it’s also a place filled with people I feel I can be open with.
Be safe, be kind, be honest.
And now here is my face looking tired with two twin pimple on my chin! Not even the ring light could save me.
Comments
I echo Raven's statement. Not every day, but some days are mentally exhausting. On my days off, I self-isolate at home, and rediscover the joys of life with Sunshine. This goofy and loving small parrot, along with phoning friends, helps me feel grounded. Which I need as one of cousin's, Ila May, passed away from Covid Friday evening. I got the news an hour before my shift ended. On the 4+ hour drive home that night, I called my favourite sister and then my best friend. So besides everything being weird and different, it is now hitting home. Thanks for sharing and listening, and being the special soul that you are. Virtual hugs, Michael, and cheers.
John Dwyer
2020-04-19 01:14:10 +0000 UTCAs a reporter, I was considered "essential" and got very, very sick just before all of this "virus" stuff started. It was a very scary thing, not knowing if I had it and if I didn't, if I could get it. In the small town I'm in, I've seen a drastic change in the way people go about their everyday life and it's more than a little frightening. On an upward note, I'm doing more art. I'm watching more instructional videos to help me improve my painting. I'm watching more Michael Hamm content - and that's always a plus! Thank you, Michael, for the uplifting photos and comments. You're bringing light, good sir, and that's always useful in times of darkness. <3
Christian
2020-04-18 08:26:19 +0000 UTCI’m glad we’re in this together!
Michael Hamm
2020-04-16 23:31:33 +0000 UTCYou have every right to feel the way you feel! No guilt!
Michael Hamm
2020-04-16 23:30:12 +0000 UTCGlad you’re going to be ok! Keep safe too!
Michael Hamm
2020-04-16 23:29:14 +0000 UTCWe need to be strong!
Michael Hamm
2020-04-16 23:28:02 +0000 UTCTHX Michael.. for your thoughts.. just got my mind into a new place.
MarkB8th
2020-04-16 00:06:46 +0000 UTCThank you for your rambling in all honesty. Everything you wrote is what I have been thinking about being privileged, being scared, being anxious, being frustrated with those feelings because I am lucky that I still have a job and can buy things. Even though I didn't want any validation for my thoughts or feelings, it's always nice to find your not alone in running through all those thoughts or feelings. Also, the pimples definitely made me think you could pull off snake bites. 😆
Matthew Wroblewski
2020-04-15 23:41:12 +0000 UTCBeing someone who works in a supermarket in the middle of all this, being exposed to the paranoia and hysteria every day for a month or so this has been going on has been mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausting. Makes it hard to enjoy the little things when you're so worn out after dealing with everything. I also feel bad complaining about it when there people who aren't able to work right now and aren't getting paid, maybe not even having a job to go back to when this is all over. But I know we're all exhausted an doing what we can to get through this one day at a time. In any case, I appreciate you for what you do Mr. Hamm. Your posts and updates help shed a little light in dire times. Thank you, and love you long time. 💓
Robert Floyd
2020-04-15 23:21:23 +0000 UTCI appreciate your message and your flaws. Makes me feel a bit better about my own.❤
Kurt Steeves
2020-04-15 23:03:11 +0000 UTCI love you even more, Mike.
Nick Brown
2020-04-15 23:02:25 +0000 UTCYou are right, we have a lot to be worried about. I have been furloughed as of today from work, but i will be fine. I just hope and pray for everyone else who isn't as lucky as i am. But for a little bit of time you give us a glimpse of something that is wonderful, and that is you. So, keep safe. Much appreciation for the joy you provide us all. 😁
Kevin Dunaway
2020-04-15 22:56:55 +0000 UTCThank you for such an amazing statement and bringing positivity to us!
Ren Curry
2020-04-15 22:50:25 +0000 UTCThank you! Defiantly great to hear someone else feel the same way! ❤️
Matthew Redmond
2020-04-15 22:50:15 +0000 UTCAww Michael thanks for sharing your feelings with us.... We appreciate and I'm sure most of share your experience with fears and concerns... We shall overcome and however long that takes we have this space to comfort and reassure each other.
Gavin Lowe
2020-04-15 22:47:40 +0000 UTCPerfect words to make us feel better 😀
Jon Gray
2020-04-15 22:46:00 +0000 UTCYou’re a beautiful person. Thank you.
Jeffery Acker
2020-04-15 22:44:59 +0000 UTC
