Her Heart Of Darkness

Vanessa's Tirade while Straddling the CPD Command Unit is Bizarre however not entirely out of Character for the Princess of Black Faction - Defacto Queen. 

Below I attempt to decipher what she said

Do you know who I am

Knowing that the Command Unit will definitely not know who she is, young pretty & bossing all of the Amazonian older power women around, with an unsettling disposition. 

Do you know why I am?

Do you know why I am is a strange question to ask, however with her recent successes & gauntlet as a Admin Unit, she is very well poised to ask someone why they think she is the Boss lady. 

Does that make sense to you?

Let me explain

Both are self explanatory to a degree, but follow below & find out more. 

Violence sets me free

Experiencing the violence over & over again herself as a target practice unit, she was able to have re runs over an over of what its like to be expended. With her sense of death & demise becoming hedonic, she has no problem inflicting it on anyone else. In fact, do some degree she enjoyed the thrill & therefor enjoys the infliction on others. The mass level violence she is playing out has pushed her higher in the ranks also. So her statement rings true, Violence sets her free. 

It stops my demons from torturing me

Her demons are forever waiting for her to falter, to pull her by her hair into the abyss of non importance, purgatory of  the lower ranks. The demons feed off of her wholesale expenditure & elimination. The steady flow of bodies keeps her sails full & her vessel afloat. 

Theres no god pulling on my strings

She has no guilt, beleives in no higher being, no after life, no trial or jury. She has said Good or Bad don't things happen to good or bad people. Things happen to people. 

Violence is the ultimate drug

For her the drugs excitement, the thrill & the results especially have addictive connotations for her. Seeing a CPD post go down, strewn with her own BFC Units like discarded junk makes her sense of higher being elevated. 

Do you want to get high?

Ive been getting high all morning

She more than likely just overseen an operation with the high possibility of her walking on site with her PSU thug. 

Fear is imperfection

The standing of her force & discipline is not infected with any aspect of fear. Fear would be an obvious imperfection. Fear in her command who are ORC free is an imperfection to her & must be exterminated. 

Fear is my motivation

She can see the fear in CPD command when she begins operations, with units in defensive positions, not taking the initiative. She can smell it, she can smell it like a lioness smelling blood on the savannah, it increases her will to hunt, her drive to kill. 

I feed off your fear

Again the opportunist, she senses the fear and takes advantage of it. Feeding herself easy meals of the flesh of combat units. 

Caterinas fear

She is convinced Caterina is scared of BFC and its new strategy led by her, with heads of the hydra being cut off constantly. Her goal is the cast fear into the heart of Caterina to make her fumble. 

You demise is methodic

The demise of CPD is methodical, planned by her with standardised non precision means, but simplified packaged goals. The girl knows how to plan. 

Those little combatants of yours I just grind up to get to you

She is referring to the CPU Units which hopelessly resist in the wake of her forces tumbling upon them, being ground up literally, expended wholesale. 

I grind mine up to get to you

She is inferring that she will grind up as many as she needs to and more to reach her goals. Her own forces matter not at all, she uses, sacrifices and throws away as needed. They are hers to cast into the abyss and she will.

I love feeding them into the abyss

She loves sending them to their demise, she despises them, has contempt for them. In her eyes they are desperate, skill-less, conforming self committing slaves who willingly kill for money. So when one is taken out by the enemy or disappears into liquid earth of the Azologoth she sees it as the planet cleansed of one less heel.  When she refers to into the abyss, she is referring to a forever forgotten person. The faceless evil servant has no identity, is just a number & when they are killed or consumed no one, especially the company cares. 

I can’t stop it its fucking hypnotic

She can't stop throwing them like confetti, sprinkling of flesh, weapon & cloth, black, red, green, blue cancelling each other out, mindlessly killing each other. She finds it absurd, fascinating - Hypnotic. 

They are blind without me

She is saying her forces are blind without her vision, forever to fumble around the zone, mindlessly falling into the abyss to be wasted. She hates waste, believe it or not. If you kill a cow, use everything. Direct them to where their entry to the abyss is required. Expend them accordingly. 

You’re helpless as I dominate

I hate the fact we breath the same air

I will exterminate you all

I will eat your soul

All quite self explanatory.