sanmie3d

Apologies and big update this weekend.

Added 2025-02-14 19:20:17 +0000 UTC

Hey pervs,

I'm currently a busy with some big updated but I wanted to let you know I'm still alive and give you a proper explanation and apology why I went so quite over the last weeks.

I'm struggling with a very hard winter depression. It was the worst feeling I ever had even though I have experience with depression. Since it got a lot worse I spoke to a Doctor I highly trust 2,5 weeks ago and got some antidepressants
which needed a few days to kick in.

It started to get better after about a week, but I still didn't want to speak to anybody or had any motivation to do anything meaningful and just felt sad and down all the time. All the things that I'm currently struggling with mentally, like my disability or other things combined with current world events just crushed down at me all it once. I took the week off work and after the meds started finally doing there full job I did a few things I wanted to do for a few years now to get something else on my mind. It worked and I decided to take yet another week of work (I'm very grateful for having such a nice boss).

I went back to doing a few productive things over the last days. Finishing animations, rendering stuff. Finishing an artwork I initially scrapped but came back to and so on. But more on this over the weekend.

I'm honestly surprised by how many are still supporting me even though I went quite without a notice. Thank you for that. I will make your wait worth while over the next days.

One last thing until I get back to working on blender.
If you are struggling with mental health. I know how bad everything feels and how hard it is to speak about it first hand. Please talk to someone you trust and try getting some help.

thank you