slow month come to think of it..

[blog: just usual stuff about what i'm working on and how i'm tired, feel free 2 skip lol]

monthly pinup pic going up soon (it's not this pic).. went a little hard on it bc it involved some complex costuming.. i guess i should probably keep those on a early access model even tho i don't really want to. but if there's one thing people love it's artificial scarcity so who am i to deny them? anyway, what's appropriate? 1 month?

been burning the candle at all 3 ends since mid dec.. no rest of the wicked.. brain's been too foggy and mushy to do much creative personal stuff. still feeling positive overall tho.. but i unironically cannot remember what a full night's sleep feels like, it's been so long.. quite literally months, and that's affecting my output a lot rn.. thanks for patience.

i'm sure you may have heard something similar from other artists too, but i get a real guilty, shoplifty feeling when i work on my own projects, bc of all the overdue stuff i should be doing instead.. that's why rn it has to be a patreon obligation (so i'm not shirking anything in doing it). this comes with its own set of pressures as well of course, and i have been feeling just that wrt the pinups, even tho they're intended to be a low stress thing. i set a lot of high expectations for myself.. All the same, very proud of this month's pic. I'll try to have that up tonight. OC stuff is not part of the obligation so it's on the backburner (unless the patreon suddenly makes another hundo or two.. then i'm sure sven will peak his head in), hope you don't mind terribly... we got another sven pic coming up this month tho as it's part of a commission, so look forward to that, gonna try to do something cool with it :]

not practicing and drawing in the sketchbook yet, just comms, comms, comms.. actually spent some time writing my gayass livejournal posts too but they've been too unbelievably cringe to post as yet.. need a lot of editing.. i've been saving that energy for the monthly newsletter post, which is a lot less fun to write, but much more important.. i'll overshare something at some point. honestly just writing this was kind of relaxing.

love you guys, thanks for being there for me in these troubling times, you really mean the world to me <333 pinup soon!!

-sven but sometimes smokes