Taking a break
Added 2025-03-31 07:11:16 +0000 UTCHey y’all,
I would like to begin by apologizing. I apologize for not posting and updating, and not sharing with you all the life that y’all have been supporting.
I have not been in a very good place.
I work over 40 hours a week, delivering pizza and working in a busy restaurant. When I get off of work, I am exhausted. I weigh over 520lbs, and when I say that my body aches, and my feet hurt, it’s unbearable.
When I get home, I still have to do laundry, clean dishes, stand for 30 min while I shower, all of the chores of adult living. I do this while carrying the weight of an extra entire human being worth of fat attached to every muscle of my body.
I am not complaining about it, I love my luxurious body, I embrace my curves, rolls, and every ounce of me.
When I started this journey, my Partner/BF fully supported me starting a patreon page. A few years later, and he doesn’t want anything to do with it.
I don’t have ANY experience editing, filming, using correct light, getting good angles, or really any of the things that make good videos. I lost my director, my editor and cameraman.
I’ve been doing my best on my own, but when I get off work, the last thing I want to do is work some more.
Not only this, but the contents of my library were leaked online, and so much of my work has been up for free. This broke my spirit. Whoever leaked my page, you ruined it for everyone.
I am struggling with the idea of continuing to create content at all.
I am not sure what I will do after the 16th when billing becomes unpaused, but I may take some time away from here.
I appreciate all of my patrons, especially those of whom who have been here since the beginning. Every Dollar pledged has gone to keeping this belly growing, and keeping me clothed.
I will return.
