black & blue UPDATE
Added 2025-07-18 22:44:31 +0000 UTCš English:
Here we go ā OF COURSE itās Friday (and for some of you itās probably already Saturday XDDD).
I took a bit longer because I went swimming with Kito today, after feeling kinda crappy again (maybe tmi, but I suffer REALLY badly from PMS ā itās honestly close to chronic fatigue syndrome in that last week of the cycle x_x). But it did me good, and now I feel recharged and ready to go :3
Iām super curious what youāll think of the current pages! Honestly, I wanted to include at least two moreā¦ but that wouldāve delayed things way too much. XD So theyāll come with the next update!
This oneā¦ I have no idea how itāll be received. Itās a little more somber, because it dips back into the past, to the moment Derek found Gogo. Heās been reflecting a lot lately, connecting his thoughts back then with what heās feeling now. It was weirdly satisfying to redraw those scenes in color, too! I had to completely rebuild the environment around the train tracks in 3D to match the current style, but I think it paid off. It kind of gives you a glimpse of what black & blue wouldāve looked like if it had been colored from the very beginning. :3
This scene marks a bit of a turning point for Derek. Somethingās starting to click. Heās realizing that he canāt be as spontaneous, careless and easygoing with Gogo as he was with his previous subs. Maybe heās just been lucky so far ā and now, with Gogo, he has a chance to actually grow.
The thing is: Derek doesnāt fully realize how immature he still is. XD But now heās slowly getting there, step by step. Is he going to succeed every timeā¦? Probably not! XD But itād be boring if he figured everything out overnight, right? XDD
Canāt wait to hear what you think of this one! <3
Love you all!
Your MAUS!
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Here we go! NATĆRLICH am Freitag (fĆ¼r manche von euch ist es ja schon Samstag XDDD).
DafĆ¼r war ich heute mit Kito schwimmen, nachdem es mir mal wieder nicht so gut ging (Maybe tmi, aber ich leide echt HEFTIG unter PMS. Das geht schon Richtung chronisches Erschƶpfungssyndrom in der letzten Zykluswoche x_x). Das hat gut getan ā und jetzt fĆ¼hl ich mich wieder frisch aufgeladen :3
Ich bin schon gespannt, was ihr zu den aktuellen Seiten sagt! Wie gern hƤtte ich noch MINDESTENS zwei weitere drangehƤngtā¦ aber dann hƤtte das viel zu lange gedauert. XD Die kommen dann beim nƤchsten Update.
Dieses Updateā¦ ich hab keine Ahnung, wie es ankommen wird. Es ist ein bisschen schwermĆ¼tig, weil es nochmal in die Vergangenheit reist ā zu dem Moment, an dem Derek Gogo gefunden hat. Derek denkt gerade sehr oft zurĆ¼ck und verbindet seine Gedanken damals mit denen, die er jetzt hat. Und es ist irgendwie saucool, all diese Szenen nochmal neu in Farbe zu zeichnen! Die Umgebung rund um die Bahngleise musste ich z.āÆB. komplett neu in 3D nachbauen, um den aktuellen Look beizubehalten. Aber ich finde, es hat sich gelohnt. Man kriegt so einen Eindruck davon, wie b&b ausgesehen hƤtte, wennās von Anfang an coloriert gewesen wƤre. :3
Es macht jedenfalls soān bisschen Klick in Derek. Er begreift, dass er mit Gogo nicht so spontan, careless und gedankenlos sein darf. Dass er vielleicht bisher einfach GlĆ¼ck mit seinen Subs hatte. Und dass Gogo ā auch fĆ¼r ihn ā eine Chance fĆ¼r Wachstum ist.
Eigentlich checkt Derek gar nicht so richtig, dass er selbst noch verdammt unreif ist. XD Aber jetzt kommt er step by step drauf und versucht, dran zu arbeiten. Obās ihm immer gelingtā¦? Wahrscheinlich nicht! XD Aber es wƤr ja auch langweilig, wenn erās von heute auf morgen sofort checken wĆ¼rde. XDD
Ich freu mich jedenfalls auf eure Meinung! <3
Hab euch lieb!
Eure MAUS!
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I love the scene, it feels very tender, raw and real at the same time. Also, as someone who suffers from post-acute infection syndrome (kind of like a milder version of chronic fatigue) I can just say: Take your time and rest. I know how hard it is sometimes (I'm also still learning to do that), but if your PMS behaves any like my illness, you're just making it worse if you push yourself.
Levia Than
2025-07-24 20:58:18 +0000 UTCYes! Absolutely! You know what I find interesting? Some commenters are already saying how incredibly disappointed they are in Derek because he manipulated Gogo so deceitfullyāand that this completely disqualifies him as a Dom or as a potentially healthy partner. And maybe Iām naĆÆve, or somethingā¦ but I just have a completely different view of people. :,D In my world, things like this happen all the time. Sure, Derek deliberately looked into Gogoāthis wasnāt an accident. But we also have to remember what his role in the gang is. And at that point, his number one goal was to find another Elite for Andy. Making Gogo happy was more of a side effect. XD He couldnāt have known that his feelings for this guy would grow so intense, so fast. If he had already felt that strongly about him at the beginning, he probably wouldāve acted differently. But now itās already happened. So whatās he supposed to do? In my opinion, blurting everything out right awayājust to be āhonestāāisnāt actually the right way to go when it comes to something this sensitive. Honestly, I think that mightāve been even more selfish. Of course, there comes a point when itās too late, especially if he were to keep it secret forever or start using that knowledge to manipulate Gogo. But heās not doing that. Heās carrying that knowledge with himāand it actually helps him do certain things especially well, as weāll see in the chapter where they sleep together for the first time. :3
Rosa Maus
2025-07-20 14:12:29 +0000 UTCI think this scene already shows some growth. Derekās a dom - in a position of power with permission normally but with this situation of knowing something he shouldnāt itās without permission so it feels bad. Following Gogos lead is the right thing to do.
Peach
2025-07-19 18:19:04 +0000 UTC
