Meredith

expired film and mamiya 7

the first 6 images were shot on 35mm with expired film, i was hoping they would come out not quite as dark. and the last 3 were shot with a mamiya 7 that a friend let me borrow on portra 800.

finally some new self portraits

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a favorite photo

just wanted to share this photo that i think may be my favorite photo of myself. i don't think i have ever shared it before.

oranges part 2

oranges part 1

polaroids from today

self portraits in the woods on a decently warm day

in the basement

“there's a piano in the sky

i hear it playing all the time

there's a rope I'm holding tight

i dream of falling every night

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i’m tired of thinking that I don't deserve you

i'm dreading the day when you let me go

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so take all this love from me

i don't want to feel anym...

day 35

winter solstice 2020

as i sit at the dining table, blueberries cover nalcoahs face and hands. my mind feels blue. hazy blue. she grabs for this paper like she grabs at me. i pull myself and the paper away. stained. covered in blue. shattered my heart is for this child, the beautiful girl who has a mother who feels so to...

body painting / full roll

this was an amazing time. my first full night away from nalcoah spent sleeping at the beach and body painting at dawn with two dear friends.

self portraits for my friend marisa with her beautiful jewelry

gid with the camera

a few random mirror selfies

collaboration with jessica silver saga

all 20 of the photos in the Alice dress

some snow

don't get me wrong, san diego has by far the nicest weather of anywhere i have ever lived, and i don't want to change my living situation. but some days i do miss when it was this terribly cold outside and the thrill of the snow on my bare skin. on this specific day two winters ago, i was 5 months pregnant and the air was in ...

home

Olympus OM 10 and Kodak gold 200

hidden in the cliffs

film from this past weekend. 

in the water

the best part of san diego so far has been being able to bike to the beach and get in the water almost every day. it's been lonely moving during a pandemic but having gideon nalcoah and the water every day is truly wonderful.

disposable camera at blacks beach (a nude beach)

yesterdays oranges

first polaroid in san diego. there will be many more of these to come this week.

disposable from july 2018

self portraits in pittsburg

shadow play / postpartum love

favorites of gid and i.

i am absolutely in LOVE with how this roll of film turned out. so magical. i have no idea how this happened other than the roll sat around for a while before i used it....?

Hannah and I in the wild.

two springs ago. gosh darn do i love this time of year. reminiscing on the days when we could roam around the world and leave our houses...

these were again all shot on a disposable camera. ahhh these are the photos that really take me back.

oh society

i made this video today of some footage i made when i was pregnant. this song perfectly fits the mood and perfectly describes how i feel right now. my entire life not feeling like i could fully be who i am, rejected when i try. but i am allowing myself to do what i want and be how i want NOW with people in my life who support...

20-23 weeks pregnant

i miss being pregnant!!! 

nap times are hard

sigh. currently sitting here while gideon tries to get nalcoah to nap for this one. we've started a routine of me doing the morning nap and him doing the afternoon nap. but it's hard to not just go in and give her the breast. so many things in parenthood where it's like "what IS the right thing to do??" and i don't know. ...

while she sleeps.