ATTENTION I will be doing a live stream tonight at 5 PM mountain time of my visit to meow Wolf in Denver. It is supposedly accessible. Guess we'll find out!
Note: for those of you who live and totally different countries separate us, I will be saving the live stream so you can watch it anyway whenever you want. It will be ...
This is something new that's been happening lately whenever my caregiver Ella massages this area. For some reason, the hyper reactivity in my shoulder blade area moved into the area underneath my armpits and right by my deltoids. Maybe it's from two years of not having a boyfriend to massage my boobs? Paralyzed people need ev...
2022-12-28 05:46:38 +0000 UTC View Post
… don't worry I'll be back to making new content soon! Just recalibrating after the holidays
2022-12-27 23:26:46 +0000 UTC View PostHopes and dreams like amphetamines keep me high on the nights when I don't wanna fight
A quiet loneliness in my being
Lonewolf eating the mushrooms on the ceiling
Love somewhere lost like the backdrop of a scene
Cause I prefer the lonely times or so it seems.
His voice is a dark ...
2022-12-26 22:24:04 +0000 UTC View Post
When you're one of the only snacks in the house…
Unfairly deprived of cuddles,
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2022-12-23 04:14:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Read my first post below before you watch this one!
I kind of switch to talking about online dating, which kind of sucks, because my feelings are the same whether I'm dealing with emotional abandonment triggers sourced from a romantic or platonic connection.
I have a lot of feelings. All. The. Time. It's really tough...
2022-12-23 00:01:04 +0000 UTC View Post
Maybe it's this area…
Maybe because I am High maintenance…
Either way. Can people just stay ??
Uploading a video tonight:)
Probably a couple videos…
I have a major update for you all but there will be two separate videos about it. Make sure to watch them in order otherwise they won't really make sense.
I am buying a bunch of lingerie tonight so be happy for me…
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2022-12-22 01:29:14 +0000 UTC View Post
Microdosing and trying not to let some unsettling news get me down…
Also, we have a -14° day coming up here in Colorado and I'm over here dressed like this…
… don't laugh at the shrubbery in my pussy at the end…
Maybe I need a professional photographer?
hmmm
2022-12-18 22:52:08 +0000 UTC View Post
Sometimes, you don't feel safe around certain people. Emotionally safe.
There's a huge sigh of relief and comfort Felt when somebody offers a safe space around themselves and in conversation where you can be emotionally secure. This feeling is overwhelming when you are used to constantly having your guard up and not...
2022-12-18 04:32:43 +0000 UTC View Post
“fuck me to death, Love me until I love myself“
Uploading a rose petal video tomorrow…
Part one…
When one is depressed, one should make art.
Or take nudes.
Same thing.
Yours,
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2022-12-18 03:49:29 +0000 UTC View Post
So this is how the interview went down.
Special thanks to everybody who has been messaging me about my depression. You guys rock.
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2022-12-17 21:54:24 +0000 UTC View PostI'm in such a dark place tonight.
I truly Believe that it would be a relief for everyone if I was not existing on this earth anymore.
I imagine how relieved my parents would be, how my siblings would rejoice because for the past two years it's only been suffering and burdensome for my parents taking care of me being ...
2022-12-16 05:39:33 +0000 UTC View Post
My acupuncturist, yvonne, demonstrates how to massage the vascular area around my pec/ armpit area.
I can't speak for every quadriplegic, but for me physical attention and massage helps so much with my blood flow, sensation, and nerve pain. Especially when it's cold and snowy like this, I rely on being physically moved ...
2022-12-14 22:18:55 +0000 UTC View Post
Thinking about all the desperately wrong things you'd do to me…
Also snowed in again…
It should be criminal to spend Winters in Colorado alone…
needy for cuddles,
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2022-12-14 02:13:08 +0000 UTC View Post
Still offering FaceTime calls for my scandalous patrons!
Usually, calls are 5 to 15 minutes Long and you can ask me pretty much anything!
You can ask me to dress up in something specific, in which case there are different options.
I'm also starting to make more commissioned videos so message me if that is somet...
2022-12-14 01:59:59 +0000 UTC View Post
What's the best and worst part of quadriplegia?
I'm constantly being handled. I would say this is better than the alternative.
It snowed again, but thankfully my acupuncturist still showed up at my house to do my treatment. The accessibility I have in allowing me to access this kind of treatment is because of a woman...
2022-12-14 01:32:05 +0000 UTC View Post
New therapy post and video update:)
I'm feeling much better thank you everyone who sent me well wishes while I had Covid, successfully avoided a hospital stay.
Getting through December,
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2022-12-14 00:32:22 +0000 UTC View Post
Combined with getting Covid, December holds special challenges for me what with caregivers schedules being patchy and having to be around family members who really don't ask me how I'm doing or what it feels like to live with a disability all the other months of the year.
Dressing up and doing a photo shoot or FaceTime ...
2022-12-11 05:41:09 +0000 UTC View Post
Because I still rely on a ventilator at night and a diaphragm pacer to help me breathe during the day, I have a tracheostomy which has to be maintained every month by being replaced with a new one. I wear the smallest adult size, and we maintain it every day using hydrogen peroxide and Q-tips to clean it. I wear gauze around ...
2022-12-09 00:08:34 +0000 UTC View Post
I'm available to schedule FaceTime calls and commissioned videos again! Just let me know what exactly you have in mind and if you're already a part of my second-tier subscription it's no extra charge.
I'll be posting a video for everyone of my tricky tracheostomy change which we do every month. I was planning on filming...
2022-12-08 19:41:57 +0000 UTC View Post
I'm still in bed since Thursday. I keep trying to get up in the morning to do my bowel program but then I have no results so I go back to bed and end up having an accident in bed. It's so humiliating and we've had to clean me up so many times but it's way better than being in a hospital. I have hardly any energy. Thankfully m...
2022-12-04 00:19:35 +0000 UTC View Post
For some reason whenever we stretch like this, my left leg goes up in the air!
I didn't make it outside today either, it was a high of 44° and I felt like I was getting a head cold and I really have to avoid getting sick at all costs.
I was hospitalized last year for Covid, and ended up being in the hospital for a w...
2022-12-01 04:29:53 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey Zach, I hope you see this. These are my casual options for tomorrow:D
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2022-11-30 21:10:39 +0000 UTC View Post
