[Esc] reality

October Livechat 2

Thank you to everyone who was able to join :) It was fun to chat with you all. Until next month!

Come hang out tonight, 8PM Berlin time - remember the stupid confusing daylight savings crap so I'm just gonna say 2 hours 20 minutes from the time this was posted. I'll update again before I star...

☯️ Dry Brushing & Body Oil ☯️ [Virtual Spa]

Version without music here. 

Hi guys, I'm happy to finally publish this beast of a video. I may not be able to cure my own insomnia, but I can cure yours. This ultra long Virtual Spa video features so many soothing brushing sounds in a softly whis...

October Livechat 1

Thanks to everyone who could join - same time next week cause I completely skipped September :) 

Today at 8PM Berlin time (in 3 hours) - join me for a casual hangout, raw and unfiltered, ask me questions, talk about life or anything you want that doesn't violate the YouTube community guidelines XD ...

Sneak Peek

Hey guys. I just wanted to post a little preview of the video I'm working on before the valerian root kicks in and I can hopefully get some rest. The obnoxious family aren't home yet and I hope they'll stay away for a while. This will be my first ever fully whispered video - simply because my voice is compromised by this stub...

post-heartbreak follow-up

Hi guys. This is gonna be an update post after I inadvertently left you at heartbreak last time. Thank you so much for your kind words and support regarding my experience. I didn't think so many of you would care and it's truly heartwarming. Thank you for taking the time to comment and offer encouragement. 

I'm wri...

30 Hours

I'm heartbroken.

If I told you about the nightmare of a trip I've had, you wouldn't believe me. I wouldn't believe me. But this happened to me. The last 28 hours have been the worst experience I've ever had to go through. I'm supposed to be in bed snuggling with the love of my life but I'm not. I'm trapped in hell and I...

⛥October Download⛥

Your complementary downloads :) Thank you super tier

⛥September Q&A⛥

It's tea and answering your questions time! You know, only my favorite time in the world. Thank you for submitting all your incredible questions - this time I have to make some alterations to them and skip a couple to give you the skimmed and socially acceptable version of my answers. I'm sorry, I know you're curious about va...

life update

Soon I'll see my love again.

Last we saw each other, we decided it would be better (and a lot less painful) for our relationship if we didn't wait a year or longer between visits. Even though our priority is still saving for our future life together that awaits beyond the razor wire fence tha...

September 2019 Vlog

Greetings mega tier and above! I hope you like your choice for a bonus video this month :) I'm a little overworked lately with travel plans on top of everything else and this is a day in my life where I try to function as much as possible with little sneak peeks of where I'm going! Stay tuned because I will be writing an upda...

Ally's USA Bucket List

As our plans to marry and move are progressing, I can't help but get a little excited to start a new life on a new landmass. I want to make this list to actively add to and cross things off because for the first time I get to feel like I'm going somewhere in life - somewhere I want to be - in my lover's arms forever.  2019-09-22 20:54:53 +0000 UTC View Post

OUTTAKES - Down By The River ☽

Finally done! I can clear my head for the next video now :)

Like if you laughed XD

Down By The River ☽

I did not go with "Super hot witch melts your troubles away ASMR" nor "Sexy wet witch helps you release!" which are both titles Jack came up with when I couldn't decide. He insists that they are technically accurate. 

This is a video I've been working on for the better part of three weeks. I've gotten amazing resul...

A Prayer To The Earth

August has been a hell of a month for so many people I know. I, myself, have been through an unexpected, thankfully brief, suicidal phase last month. Many people experience pressure and burden that seem unmanageable. We know we need help, but we don't know who to ask (that wouldn't try to lock us up or isn't already overloade...

Sneak Peek

"Tell your patrons what you're working on" - a magical experience. 

Recently I hit a wall and learned that the reason why I can't go on making videos like I used to is because I don't want to make videos like I used to. I need something fresh.

Today I ventured out on a little field recording session. I manage...

⛥August Q&A⛥

Hello and happy September! I started writing this post yesterday but then I got interrupted by bridges I should have burned a long time ago stealing my energy and focus. I hope you didn't mind waiting for the answers to your questions :)

Here they are:

Have you ever thought about doing a collab ...