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Pitiful creature 🐭

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My husband’s grandmother passed away recently. She was almost 99, and aged in an authentic way that inspired me. She was worldly and graceful and well read. She shared her compassion for humanity and her wildflowers. I’ve learned so much from her in the 20 years I’ve known her.

A decade ago she downsized from her...

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A No Good Very Bad Day

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Today just sucked. I’ve had this app open all day with the intention of writing about the slumber party, but now it’s after midnight and the day got away from me.

I woke up this morning from a dream I was at my ex’s place and I was a ghost. I could feel his soft grey couch, I could smell his cologne if I was clos...

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Pretty Smooth

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Yesterday I went to a cute little apothecary and good the lovely lady that owns it about the midnight ritual I was creating for the upcoming slumber party. I told her the goal was to clear negativity and make room for growth. She suggested I use Ocean Jasper and Lace Agate.

Ocean Jasper (green and yellow) is a “go wi...

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“Pretty kitty,” he purred at me.

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When I saw this photo I remembered the way the thick carpet felt under my knees. We hadn’t been dating that long. I felt vulnerable all of a sudden, bare on the floor while he was still fully clothed. He felt it, he must have, because he started saying sweet soothing things from across the room while he focused his lens. ...

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One Year Later

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I tend to only do tarot readings for myself in times of great change or transition. I always do a simple past-present-future set up, and make a little note of the cards I pull and my thoughts about them. This time I had tea and flowers and raspberries to go with the quiet moment.

I didn’t realize this until I sat dow...

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Pink Spring Fairy 💕

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This is a cute little self portrait I took in the Spring of 2015.


This picture just reminded me that I haven’t worn tall socks in a looooong time. Now that it’s Spring I’m going to have to bring them out with some cute dresses.

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Seeing Sex

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I'm so excited to share this news here first: When tumblr died my friend (and badass writer/pornographer/creator of things) Stoya approached me about writing some smut for her new Zero Spaces project. 

"ZeroSpaces is a sexually explicit media project. We carefully handcraft a collection of videos, photos, artic...

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Winter Rose

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Party Favours

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I pre-ordered a few copies of Katie West’s “Becoming Dangerous” as prizes for some of the games at the Slumber Party. Witchy queer femmes supporting witchy queer femmes! ✨

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Bonus bum 🍑

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A little extra for my full-access darlings. Thanks for being such sweethearts.

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April 2019

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The summer of 2017 was hard. In the midst of my emotional battlefield my best friend Joie and I were lying on the grass in my backyard, covered in crystals, smoking joints and appreciating the solar eclipse. We were hoping to cleanse the recent negativity. I’d just had my horoscope read and couldn’t get my head around it....

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Q & A

I’m going to be answering a few questions I’ve had in my inbox here in a post for all Patrons. If you have a question or query about anything at all (personal, poly, patreon, parties, possibly something else that also starts with a “p”) you can add it as a comment on this post, or 2019-03-31 23:35:16 +0000 UTC View Post

Change requires patience ✨

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Today marks day one of trying to go cold-turkey on a bad habit. That bad habit is a person I love, and this addiction runs deep. I want to heal though, and I want to make room for good things to grow.

Change is hard, especially emotional changes, I keep reaching for old impulses. Texting him when I feel overwhelmed. Co...

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Patreon Change (and gratitude)

I've decided to switch my Patreon account to monthly rather than per-creation. I'm adjusting the tiers to reflect that too, if this means you want to change your support levels or opt out please know I appreciate every little bit of support you've given thus far! 

The main reason I need to make this change is becau...

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Snuggle butt 🐇

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Pretty sure this is what they mean by Power Suit 🐰

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These are officially the best jammies ever. I recently got them back from my ex-boyfriends house and I’ve been LIVING in them.

When you’re a connoisseur of bunnies you realize some bunny prints are kinda generic. But this ...

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Archive Update

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This thing is driving me bananas! So I finally decided on a good platform, took the time to copy all of the content on tumblr from the first Sapphic Slumber Party, then combed through the "flagged posts" and added all of the shots they removed for being "adult content". I thought I was done! I was so proud. I loved that all o...

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So close!

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I've been working on the first Sapphic Slumber Party archive all day, and in spite of some technical frustrations this afternoon, I'm almost finished!

I'm gonna get some sleep and give it a final look with fresh eyes in the morning before posting to share with you here tomorrow.

Thanks for your patience!

(Th...

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His favourite subject...

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This is another gem from the 2011 photoset I found. He took so many pictures of my ass. He was the only partner I’ve ever had who would say “Wait, don’t move, let me take your picture, just like this.” It made me feel beautiful, remarkable even. I posted a couple close ups from this shoot on tumblr back then, but not ...

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Guess who finally figured out a good way to archive?

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Expect an album of the first slumber party pics by Wednesday night!

I'm having so many good memories going through all of these photos.

Before the very first slumber party we did a photo shoot while the sun was still out. This is a gif I made of Kitten on my lap, and Ms. O waiting patiently by our side.

(Ed:...

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Forget Me Not

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I got a notification about “flagged posts” on a private tumblr I used to use for keeping photos organized. As I scrolled through the list of posts that had been blocked I came across a black and white set I forgot even existed. They’re intimate photos my ex took of me when we first started dating. An emotional landmine....

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“I can see right through you.”

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Kind encouragement ♥️

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I’m admittedly a bit stressed about the upcoming slumber party. This is our first event without tumblr, which really fuelled sales of our instax packs, as well as my store sales, and our tip jar on kofi. By combining these little s...

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“I spend so much time on the details, and where does it get me?”

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Photo by Guy New York ♥️

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Kisses 💋

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Instax of Elly and I from last summer. Covered in lipstick kisses, before we got them all smudged and messy.

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Love Letter 💚

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This is an outtake from the peony photoshoot Elly and I did together last June. I accidentally set the timer off while adjusting the camera. She looks sweet, and annoyed, and so pretty.

It’s been almost 2 months since we’ve visited, and the last one went so quick. Long distance feels longer sometimes. I like this p...

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HELP!

Hey gang, I'm stuck on a decision here. I'm figuring out the best way to share slumber party photos (previous and upcoming). 

Should I share them all on one long album? (Pro: All in one place, nice continuity. Con: Poor image quality because Patreon compresses everything but the first image, .) 

Or post ...

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Hanging with Guy New York

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This was from last spring when I was in Brooklyn visiting Guy and Piper. We had a great photo shoot, with Piper and I being twinsies on the piano. I posted a few to tumblr but there were so many other good ones I wanna share. I’m missing them both, a...

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Caught 🐇

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I love this photo so much. Such a happy memory. I submitted it to Nympho Ninjas in 2013, my ex took it during an adorable playtime we had together. I remember Ninja commenting on how refreshing it was to see kink in the day time. We only ever had day time dates because of our schedules. I loved the sun shining in while we did...

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Meditations for March

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I needed a journal to get this out of my system. I haven’t had a physical journal since I started my tumblr in 2010. I used to keep one, but when the details started to get too salacious it felt like a weird thing to have lying around the house. I’ve been missing that outlet. So I picked this little one for stream of cons...

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